I WRITE THIS ARTICLE WITH A GUSH OF BLOOD VIOLENTLY POURING OUT OF THE HEART I HAD RIPPED OUT OF MY CHEST. YET AGAIN, I FIND MYSELF CRYING AT THE SHOULDERS OF MY POOR FRIEND, RAYLA, WHO IS JUST OVERBURDENED AND OVERWORKED BY MY TRAGICALLY GLUM LIFE. THIS TIME I AM MOURNING THE LOSS OF THE CONFIDENCE I HAD IN HUMANITY.
SIX MONTHS AGO I MET THE MAN WHO I THOUGHT, I WAS ABOUT TO START THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH. HE WAS SUCCESSFUL, WELL GROOMED, WE HAD GREAT CHEMISTRY, BASICALLY EVERYTHING I WANTED IN A MAN.
I AM VERY VIGILANT AND CAREFUL WHEN IT COMES TO RELATIONSHIPS, I KNEW THAT A MAN SO PERFECT COULD NOT POSSIBLE BE ON THE MARKET BUT MY, WAS HE CHARMING. HE GAVE ME EVERY SENSE OF SECURITY, I KNEW I WAS SAFE WITH HIM. I WAS NOT TO ANTICIPATE WHAT WOULD HAPPEN NEXT.
ABOUT A WEEK AGO, A WOKE UP TO A PRIVATE NUMBER CALL, A VERY PISSED OFF WOMAN TELLING ME TO, 'LEAVE HER MAN ALONE.' I WAS SHAKEN BUT REMINDED MYSELF TO MAINTAIN COMPOSURE. I SPOKE PATIENTLY AND POLITELY BUT SHE WAS NOT HAVING IT. I WAS JUST A COMMON WHORE WHO WAS TRING TO BREAK UP A LONG ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP. SHOCKED ABOUT HEARING MR PERFECTS INFEDELITIES, I HUNG UP WITH NO GOODBYES AND WENT TO SLEEP IN A POOL OF TEARS.
POINT IS: IT'S NOT LIKE I AM AFRAID OF CONFRONTATION BUT THIS WAS NOT THE TIME TO UNLEASH 'THE BITCH THAT LIVES WITHIN. THIS WOMAN CALLED ME NAMES I DO NOT CARE TO REPEAT. HE MAY BE HER MAN BUT DOES SHE REALISE HE WAS MY MAN TOO. I'M NOT GOING TO BE MADE OUT AS IF I'M THE BAD GUY HERE, I DID NOT STEAL HER MAN ! INFACT, I THOUGHT I HAD FOUND MY OWN. SO, WHAT GIVES HER THE RIGHT TO CALL ME UP AND USE ALL KINDS OF INSULTING LANGUAGE. CORRECT ME IF I'M WRONG, BUT WHAT SHE DID WAS DISTASTEFUL AND DARN RIGHT LOW. IS SHE REALLY GOING TO STAND FOR A CHEATING MAN? WILL SHE ALWAYS BE PICKING UP THAT PHONE? HOW FAR WLL WOMEN GO TO KEEP THE MEN IN THEIR LIVES. THIS MAY SEEM TRIVAL TO YOU BUT I KNOW TO SOME DEGREE YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKIN BOUT.
I HAVE SINCE COOLED THINGS WITH MR PERFECT, I DON'T NEED THE UNECCESSARY DRAMA. BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN HE IS NOT FIGHTING TO GET MY AFFECTIONS BACK. I'D RATHER HAVE HIM CHASING ME, THAN ME FIGHTING OFF POTENTIAL THREATS.