It’s Friday 19h00 and I’m sitting here at work. No I am not working but I’m just going through wedding websites. I’ve been doing this since January. I’m so desperate to get married it’s not even funny.
I’ve always wanted to get married young I even set a date for myself which was on my birthday this year….I’ve always said I’ll get married on a Saturday of my birthday which was either this year Feb 16th or 2011 and the next option seems quite far.
My dream dressI’ve collected my brides maids dress ideas, my wedding dress (which I chose with my boyfriend while he was still asking me out and who hasn’t said a word about getting married since we got together wagcina mhla engithembisa izulu nomhlaba), my shoes, my deco and I’ve already started looking around for nice wedding invites and wedding favours (table gifts) and mind you I’m not even engaged, there isn’t even a talk of that…
My bridesmaid dressesMy bridesmaid dress 2I feel under pressure to get married now. I have a friend whom we did everything together with since high school, we did the same subjects, did the same activities at school, did the same course in college and we always wished we’d find jobs in the same company because we were always together (which didn’t happen) and we wanted to get married on the same day…Oh well it didn’t happen because she got married last year and has a cute little baby boy now and me????? Well I still I’m still wondering where I’ll find a man who’s serious enough to marry me…phew!!
Ikhekhe lamiI was talking to my boyfriend right now and all that was going to my mind was how do I give him hints about me wanting to get hitched…he tells me about a bonus he’s getting in August this year:
Boyfriend: It’s shouldn’t be less then R50000
Me:
*thinking that should be enough for ilobolo* so what are you gonna do with it babe?
Boyfriend: I’ll probably save it
Me:
*thinking on my feet and acting like someone is calling me on my cellphone* (after the call) oh babe that was a girl I know, she thinks I got married, someone is spreading rumors about me I suppose
Boyfriend: Oh okay…
After this we have a small argument, I drop the phone I’m thinking “Nx!! I should dump his a** and get someone to marry me ghaa!!!. I mean guys how desperate can one get?
Wedding FavoursI’m actually feeling sorry for myself am I the onlyone feeling like this la ngaphandle. Come on bloggers talk to me, counsel me, direct me…what ever, I hate feeling like this. Kwenziwa njani makunje?