This blogger sent me this to put on my blog because she needs help. I tried to give her directions but she has been failing and now I’m putting it on my blog.
This is her story…
My “non-existent” love life is one complicated mess.
I “have” a boyfriend who loves me and I love him so dearly. We are from the same place. We went to the same schools primary and secondary. I “knew” him all my life but we never spoke to each other. We never greeted each other.
In 2007 December, we had a party at our house and he gate crashed and that’s when it all started. We dated for about a year and we were madly in love until I discovered the darker side of him when I found out about a relationship with a kid involved that he did not tell me about until I was surprised one day when paying him a visit. We tried to work things out nonetheless but it would seem the relationship was shaken really hard.
Whilst this was happening my family had their own reservations about our relationship due to some rumours that were always there about his family. You know, that they are using muti and stuff. I also heard that before but I never believed it and it was worse when I fell in love with him.
I thought I had found my soul mate and the one I will die in his arms. The thing about him is that he is mostly broke that sometimes I have to give him petrol money to come visit me (He stays less than 10km from my place). He has not upgraded me financially but I feel fulfilled emotionally and intellectually when I’m with him. He has a problem of lying for no reason. This other time he made me believe that I was talking to his sister (his mother’s child) for about 4 months until I found out that she is actually his cousin (aunt’s daughter). This I discovered after I had confided in her with whatever we were going through. To this day I don’t understand why he lied to me about this.
The relationship was very shaken to a point where we broke up but we got back together after some few months because we love each other and missed each other deeply.
Now every time he says something I question and scrutinize it and sometimes I just don’t want to be with him because I feel like his taking a lot from me.
There is this other Xboyfriend turned friend who is making things worse. I actually left him for the current boyfriend but we remained friends nonetheless. We would go out and when I needed someone to talk to when I had problems with my boyfriend he was always there.
The reason we broke up was that he was afraid of commitment and there was a girlfriend who was still featuring even though they were 600km apart from each other. He did not want to leave her fearing that he might hurt her and I was warned that there might be times that she might rock up and I had to understand. This I did not accept and thank goodness she never dreamed of coming and they finally broke up after he heard that she is dating one of his friends. This was too late as I had already left him and I was with this guy.
Between the time I broke up with my current boyfriend this guy was my booty call. Eee o a ntira! Ontira gore ke … ohhh…
Now this guy says that he still in love with me but he doesn’t want a relationship with me because he needs to sort out his life first. I also still love him and still love my boyfriend more. They both want to marry me one day. I love my current boyfriend more and this other guy loves me and cares a lot about me and he doesn’t have a lot of controversy.
I have to choose between the two because it is very unfair for me to carry on like this.
Must I wait for Mr Nkamodira to sort out his life or must I carry on with my current boyfriend who comes with a lot of baggage?
Maybe I should do heads or tail thingy and get it over and done with. I wish it was that simple! Maybe I should marry them both!! Now I understand how polygamy started!!!
Yes I know that other bloggers don't like personal stuff like this one. If you don't please khululeka and do as you please.
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