Hi guys, comming to you with a huge hope that u will be able to help me with my problem.
See ive this girlfriend of mine (Mandy) whom i love dearly, thing is my parents dont approve of our relationship.we've been dating for a year now and they found out four months back. When they did, my step-mom (whom i live with and is the exact description of the word "horror" believe me),she made it a mission to give the poor child hell about it. First she went totaly nuts on me about dating a girl (me being bisexual) and wouldnt wanna listen let alone try to understand what i had to say for myself, then she went on harrased my girlfriend every chance she could get. She actualy went out of her way to make sure i never get to see her again.
Ofcouse i went against her wishes and carried on seeing Mandy. now becoz she wouldnt give it no rest, my girlfriend sugested that we take a brake until "step-momy dearest" cools off, because she couldnt take the harrasment from her anymore. i didnt think that was a good idea bcoz i was afraid of loosing her forever as noone knows if she'd ever cool off about it, so i said no we could always find another way around this.
We hung on and time went by (it still is).we decided to lie about it and tell her we quit even though we never did. that has been going on for two months now but i still dont think she totaly buys it, bcoz there are times when she'd just make funny comments about it but not directly,but atleast she has layed off our cases for now.
Now the thing is lately i've been thinking a lot about things; you know- life, future and all that revolves around. i do believe that i might be bisexual alright, i discoverd that recently (Mandy's my very 1st girlfriend) i just never realized my real feelings towards attractive girls iv met before until the day i met her. she totaly rocks my world (or -ed??).But im not sure that is what i realy wanna be. I adore my girlfriend in every sense of the word belive me. I just cant imagine me spending the rest of my life living it, not that i dont feel it- i do belive me. Plus has this life style going; this i cant realy fit in to. the partying till moon goes home,group of friends i dont realy aprove of (but i'd never say that to her ofcoz) she's sacrificed a lot for me already. Its her personality im crazy about, her inner side its softning you'd sign up your entire life unaware i promis you! she's the cuttest thing i've ever layed my eyes on. just the little things are those that count the most with her. but she can be difficult and imposible sumtimes! (plus im the jelous type so i just fail to stand her ways most times,there's insecurity both ways or sides with us bcoz she also recorns im too irresistable she dont even trust herself with me either)
Now i dont think i wanna hold on to us anymore,if i do and time passes by it might just get more dificult to let go. i think im forcing myself to loose interest in and its hapening,i might be slowly but surely falling out of love with her . I keep telling myself i can do it becoz i think i want to. Plz note though that i would never want to hurt her for any reason in the whole world!! i wud actualy kill for that babe! Hope u do understand my position.
Ques 1: if i wanted to leave her for any reason what would be the best way to do this? she ddnt do me any rong nor can i her.
Ques 2: How do i get my step-mom off my case for good? Just to back her off and give me my own space? Nothing i've already said would make her listen.
Thanks guys.