This is something that has been on my mind alot recently and it might sound...no, IT IS SOMEWHAT CONTROVERSIAL and I suggest you leave this blog now if you are a sensitive person when it comes to discussing issues of race. So I've warned you nhe, and if you do stick around I need your honest opinions and suggestions as to the "accuracy" of what I'm about to say and ways, I know there has to be ways, of overcoming them and moving forward. And another thing, this is not some darkie who won't get off her butt and do something instead of waiting for people to do things for her. This is a darkie who sees gaps cracks in our "rainbow nation". This is a darkie who sees people out to sabotage (though they may not be aware of it) this rainbow nation. This is a darkie who also knows that sometimes there are rivers you have to cross, and sometimes such rivers are near impossible to cross. And sometimes the near impossible can turn into impossible. This is a darkie who knows and believes sometimes we can turn these impossible into possibles.
I was listening to Bad Boy T and Lupi the other day and the topic was about whites being in high positions in business (note this excludes government) and how they have been at the top for so long they've mastered the art of staying there and also getting their own race there also and keeping us darkies down here. Yes, I did warn you this is controversial.
First off let me just state that I am not a racist and don't think like a racist person. I think this country and its people have been through too much to hold on to such negativity. However, I won't lie and tell you I don't sometimes generalise and/or think or refer to white people as "them" as if they are a different species. Yes, I sometimes do that. But let me support this feeling and thinking by saying that I believe this is 100% normal. I think that with the history that we have in this country this is only a natural way of thinking and feeling. Maybe if I was born out of the apartheid era like our youngsters out there then I wouldn't have preconceived (from all those years) ideas and notions. I also believe same applies to whites (especially the Afrikaans speaking people), coloureds, indians, and whatever colour you may find in this country. We all think like that because it is something that we lived with for so long and something that succeeded in dividing us for so long that it has somehow become a part of us. Over the years this...I'll call it a virus...this virus, has somewhat weakened over the years but it is still there and will continue for as long as we remember. It's not an easy thing, this forgive and "forget".
So as I was saying, white people and their tight grasp on power (business wise). I actually switched stations soon after I heard what they were talking about because this is some "truth" that is uncomfortable for me. It's not nice to hear things like this. It takes us back to "back in the day"...you all know what I'm talking about. So I had a look at my personaly situation and the situations of people around me (by this I mean darkies). I studied for 3 years towards an HR Diploma at what was then called Wits Tech. That was from '99 to 2001. I failed 2 semesters over the course of those years (Accounting which I failed my first year and dropped it halfway thru my second year as I was once again not succeeding with it...and Management of Training - missed the final exam on this one). Why didn't I go back and finish? 2 Reasons: 1. I was absolutely gatvol of res life and just had to leave!!! 2. I knew that if I left res there was an almost certainty that I wouldn't be as dedicated to my classes...the idea of travelling to and fro was something I couldn't fathom. So basically, I became a dropout. I decided I'd correspond, as soon as I found a job. I didn't know it would take 1 whole year for this to happen. This I'm sure alot of you (darkies) can relate to. So eventually I found a job...nothing permanent, in fact, in all the (almost) 4 years that I've been working I have never been permanent! And I've worked for about 6 companies all in all (it happens, when you're a temp). So I've never had a stable job. So an unstable job = no long-term financial commitments = no car and no house (banks will NOT consider you if you're a temp no matter how long you've been working for...I should know, I've worked for 2 banks). And you know us darkies mos, you know how we think/do...once you get a job a million things come up of how you should spend that money...need to help out at home/help out with little sisters/brothers' education....this and that needs fixing and/or upgrading at your parents' house etc etc etc. Somewhere along the line your goals become fuzzy. People tell you you've got a job so why worry about school? You remind yourself over and over again why you went to school and why you need to complete that degree/diploma but something always comes up! So 4 years later I'm still without my Diploma! And guess what? Over the years I've found there's thousands of people out there (mostly whites) who didn't finish their studies but are doing the work they studied for and getting paid the perks that come with it regardless. So I started marketing myself also, hoping I'll get "lucky". No such luck...
The company I work for now is a bank (I won't say which bank...some of you know and some don't). I've heard endless stories of so and so has studied for this and that but look at them, still stuck doing admin work and/or call centre. What race are these people? Black! I'll hear stories like person B (for black) and person W (for white) have the same years of experience and have been in the company the same no. of years and they do the same work BUT person W (white) earns more!!! WTF??? Oh, and look around....who are all the temps in this place? Bo darkie! And who stands a better chance of being promoted? Who has the biggest and nicest house(s), car(s)? White people. One time our company did a survey on the most "educated" people in the bank and this guy came out tops. Apparently he had more degrees than anybody else in the bank, upping even the CEO. Who is he? A darkie. What does he do? Call Centre Agent. *sigh* And my bank specialises in finance. I won't say whether vehicle or housing as this might surely give them away! I always get so frustrated when I'm working on an account and I see someone has made notes in Afrikaans! I think WTF! Why couln't they use English? How the hell am I supposed to know what they're saying??? I get so mad I want to update in my own language. After all, SeTswana is an official language right? Right. But I always tell myself, do not stoop to their level. Be the bigger person you are. I answer my phone in my language though, I figure this no one can fault me for, after all, Setswana IS an official language. Back to my company...we deal in finance. And I keep hearing this statement everywhere "the majority of our clients are Afrikaaners" and I keep thinking no, that can't be right. Do the numbers: how many blacks, english, afrikaans, coloureds, indians etc do we have in this country? Blacks always outnumber! Why don't they outnumber here? Then I took a closer look. And yes, some would say 65%(this is not an official figure) of our clients are Afrikaans speaking people. How many Afrikaans speaking people do we have? And still, they are our majority clientele. What does that tell you? Who's got the moola?
My sister is a Systems Analyst. She once found out (on the previous company she worked for) that she was earning less than her counterparts. And my sister is a hardworker. I've never seen anyone as dedicated to their job as she is. She sometimes worked till 11 at night, every night; and sometimes even weekends. Her colleagues did so too but not as much as she did. She quit a month after she found out about the salary difference. She's now at another company where she got passed up for a promotion, a promotion everybody thought she had bagged as she was more than qualified and had all the right attributes, skills etc. for. Who got the job? A white woman. And this woman was a close friend of hers. Note I said was. She fought to find out why she got passed up and the other lady was chosen and boy, did she make waves! Not enough to get her what she wanted. But enough to let them know she will not be walked all over and next time I'm sure they'll think twice. Enough for her to lose her friend too. *sigh*
So as they say, white people have been in this game for soooo long and know how to play it well and outsmart us. Us darkies are nubies to this whole thing. We don't know the first thing about how to get there and how to stay there. We don't know the first thing about how to get our brothers and sisters up there too! The people who know this, they say, will NOT help us get there! So they have the power and they're not letting go!
Do you believe/agree with this? If so, how can we overcome (note I did not say "fight"). U'll find sometimes we are just as good, or even better than them in business but how do we free ourselves from these shackes that are holding us back? How do we get up there, stay there, and show them that it's actually OK for all of us to be on top? How do we show them they need us as much as we need them? How do we overcome this disease that is apartheid and become one, not just in word, but in spirit and in action also? How do we help them let go?