Ok, I've never cried the way i'm crying right now over somebody that's passed away.. Coz , thing is, death has never robbed me of anyone close...
Well, I've lost an uncle, a distant cousin, a few grandmothers, but never, ever have I lost someone I shared so much with...
I got a phone call about thirty minutes ago... An old friend has passed away. An old friend I've been avoiding for months. An old friend that meant so much back then, an old friend I've shared bottles of Jack Daniels with in the wee hours of a Sunday morning....
A friend I used to hold miscellaneous gigs with back in day... any excuse to get an SAB sponsorship and get sloshed... we'd celebrate almost anything and come up with any kind of theme, just to get free booze and then have afterparty for every afterparty...
Then I became selfish... I cancelled a few people out of my life and I signed a Hermit's Application Form.
I'd make any kind of excuse not to meet up with my old friends, not to dress funny for the J&B Met, not to drink from Thursday to Sunday, just like old times. Not to have fun.
But now he's passed away... He's gone... I ignored his calls and avoided him.. For a very long time.
It never crossed my mind that he might die.
The last time I saw him was about six months ago.
I'm only writing this coz I needed to tell somebody... I needed to tell someone that I regret being selfish...
I can only say this.. sometimes we lose so much in people's lives, we forget to be part of people's lives coz we are too self-centred...We never think they might die and we forget to appreciate them.
My simple words are:
*Appreciate your friends. They might not make you happy everyday but they are in your life for a reason.
*Laugh with them even when you dont really feel like it. At least you'll remember their smile when they are gone, and they'll remember yours.
*Hug them even when there's no particular reason.
*Love them even when they make you pull your hair sometimes.
*Spend time with them even when you don't really feel like it - It's not always about you.
*Build happy memories. You dont want the only thing you remember about your friend to be "Leave me Alone!!!"